I feel like a statue stuck in the same place as always as people pass by without taking notice. I feel as if the weight of the world is breaking me. Like the small cracks are growing until this once statue breaks and falls into nothing but a pile of useless rocks.
1) Single, Taken, or Flirty
Single
2) Are you happy with that?
Sure
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Not literally but pretty much, yes
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Nope
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Not really
8) Do you want children?
Do you want to carry around an attachment with you for nine months? Hell no!
9) How Many?
Zero, Nada, Zip, Zilch
10) Would you consider adoption?
Yup
11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yea
12) Do you want someone you can't have?
In a way, yea
13) Have you fallen in love?
I'm pretty sure at one point I fell. Hard.
14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yea
15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
Yea
16) Is it a good day?
Lets leave this blank okay?
17) Have you ever wished you could have someone but you couldn't?
Many times
18) Have you ever broken a heart before?
Yea
19) What would you say to your most recent ex?
Well I don't have much to say
20) How do you feel about your recent ex?
I feel like things died out.
Single
2) Are you happy with that?
Sure
4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Not literally but pretty much, yes
5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?
Nope
7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
Not really
8) Do you want children?
Do you want to carry around an attachment with you for nine months? Hell no!
9) How Many?
Zero, Nada, Zip, Zilch
10) Would you consider adoption?
Yup
11) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yea
12) Do you want someone you can't have?
In a way, yea
13) Have you fallen in love?
I'm pretty sure at one point I fell. Hard.
14) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yea
15) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
Yea
16) Is it a good day?
Lets leave this blank okay?
17) Have you ever wished you could have someone but you couldn't?
Many times
18) Have you ever broken a heart before?
Yea
19) What would you say to your most recent ex?
Well I don't have much to say
20) How do you feel about your recent ex?
I feel like things died out.
Over the last four years I noticed something. People always say 'I love you' but they don't even understand what love is. It's used to get in a girls pants. It's used to get a guy to spend money. However, the word itself no longer has value. The term 'ily' has replaced the words, and the words used by ignorant people has erased the passion the word once stood for.
We only live so long, we have to tell the people that we love, that we love them while they can still hear us. For once they can no longer do so, we will regret not saying it. Those friends that lost touch with you after three years when you used to hang out with each other every day. Those laughs that were shared amongst the people that you spent time with you. It's all a figment. Each person in this world is your competition. They can take that last spot in a job and you will stay on the street with a sign. That 'Friend' that 'Loved' you, left you to beg to survive. We are letting our economy slip more and more. We help everywhere with disasters besides our own home. We should fix our own problems of unemployment, slums, and all the like here before we go and help others. Stop spending out tax money for your pleasure. Use it to help out the people who need help. Don't let people on welfare when they are driving a damn Mercedes. Our economy is trash, and the way we are growing up, we are becoming trash.
We only live so long, we have to tell the people that we love, that we love them while they can still hear us. For once they can no longer do so, we will regret not saying it. Those friends that lost touch with you after three years when you used to hang out with each other every day. Those laughs that were shared amongst the people that you spent time with you. It's all a figment. Each person in this world is your competition. They can take that last spot in a job and you will stay on the street with a sign. That 'Friend' that 'Loved' you, left you to beg to survive. We are letting our economy slip more and more. We help everywhere with disasters besides our own home. We should fix our own problems of unemployment, slums, and all the like here before we go and help others. Stop spending out tax money for your pleasure. Use it to help out the people who need help. Don't let people on welfare when they are driving a damn Mercedes. Our economy is trash, and the way we are growing up, we are becoming trash.
Masquerade
As the beats fill my ears,
My body forgets the fears,
Moving alone as he nears,
The crowd slowly clears.
The music plays for us,
The others vanish without a fuss,
Past them we quietly brush,
It grows so late that to go hoe we'll have to take the bus.
Our masks hide our faces,
We found out places,
In eachothers arms we escape the chases,
Of eachothers feet as we avoid one anothers paces.
Slowly I take off his mask,
With a light intake of breath I must ask,
if in his gaze I may bask,
Somehow to me it seems the only logical task.
A smile spreads across his lips,
Sending more than one million tips,
Slowly towards me he dips,
And my heart begins doing flips.
As the beats fill my ears,
My body forgets the fears,
Moving alone as he nears,
The crowd slowly clears.
The music plays for us,
The others vanish without a fuss,
Past them we quietly brush,
It grows so late that to go hoe we'll have to take the bus.
Our masks hide our faces,
We found out places,
In eachothers arms we escape the chases,
Of eachothers feet as we avoid one anothers paces.
Slowly I take off his mask,
With a light intake of breath I must ask,
if in his gaze I may bask,
Somehow to me it seems the only logical task.
A smile spreads across his lips,
Sending more than one million tips,
Slowly towards me he dips,
And my heart begins doing flips.
As our lips meet the music fades,
We hide amongst anothers shades,
Upon me his being raids,
Yet against it his control aids.
As the music fades back in,
I realize my own sin,
How could this man so easily win?
Slowly the panic can begin.
His arms release me and leave me alone,
For these sins I must atone,
Back through the people he will comb,
Without looking back he'll return home.
How could this man so easily win?
Slowly the panic can begin.
His arms release me and leave me alone,
For these sins I must atone,
Back through the people he will comb,
Without looking back he'll return home.
(That is all I have so far. There WILL be more =D )
Angel
There is something beautiful here,
It is far away but also near,
Without it we have all to fear,
For it is him who stills the world.
No peace shall rest upon my heart,
For his presence can tear me apart,
Only his breath can leave a mark,
His light causes the darkness to uncurl.
Gentle lips embrace my skin,
Blood red boiling leads me to sin,
Now I wonder where he my whole life had been,
An essence of true liberty we shared.
His lips still linger upon mine,
And so dows the breath of gentle pine,
If this is wrong dear lord give me a sign,
For this one moment shall not return.
A gentle brush against my cheek,
This alone is enough to make me weak,
Only his touch shall I forever seek,
For he is my love, my life, my angel.
Morning Glory
The morning dew upon my door,
I seek for vengance no longer more.
He has returned in all his glory,
Spreading wide and smiling for me.
Little drops rest on his soul,
He is all I need to make me whole.
A fragrance so gentle it calls to sleep,
Yet some over this do gently weep.
He comes to my doorway as silent as can be,
And he'll stand there and wait for me.
While he waits he does not scream,
For he never says what he doe not mean.
As he bows his head to autumns light,
I know I will see him after this night.
And he shall smile and rejoice to the day,
And forever in my garden he shall stay.
Roses
She reaches up towards the sun,
Forever they are united as one,
A vivid red in the light,
He cannpt control her, even with all his might.
Reach and reach she shall forever do,
Of course to her this is nothing new,
Each morning she'll have drops of dew,
Then the world will unite those two.
Crimson red streches out as a dress,
There is nothing anyone can do to make her a mess,
She shall grow to be his success,
More than that but still no less.
Each winter she begins to wither and cry,
No longer can she reach for the sky,
She shall then slowly die,
And be reborn when the snow goes by.
Raven
There is a quiet knock at my door,
Ever so gently his shadow covers the floor.
Feathers softly brush my cheek,
This is my gift to keep.
Softly his name I mutter,
Carefully he shall stutter.
His song considered for death,
It is this that gives me breath.
He stands upon my berth,
Willing for me to return to Earth.
Slowly I let myself fall,
For I shall only trust his call.
They have come to see my entombment,
Yet no once were they heaven-sent.
He watches them as they cry,
Slowly he extends his wings and screams goodbye.
Well those are just A FEW I have MANY more. =D
You know a lot of people don't understand what people find in playing an instrument. Even myself is guilty of it. I decided to play the flute because I wanted to be in the same class as my friend Rhea in the 4th grade. That was nine years ago. I am just now learning how to read music. You probably think 'how the heck can you just NOW be learning how to read music?' Thing is that when I started playing the flute I wasn't taught to play with notes, I could tell what a half note, whole note and quarter note were, but not the others. I was taught to play by ear. So this year I got solo music and I have listened to it so much that I hummed the tune in all my classes. Playing my flute has always been a major thing for me. I always wanted a good score so that no one could say 'ha ha you can't play!' But now that I can actually read the music I developed a much deeper passion for playing my flute. I normally never played my flute when I got home, but this time, I want to prove to myself that I can do challenging things, and not anyone else. I don't want to be the one who is just trying to get a good performance, I want to be the person who does whatever they can to get a perfect performance. I never tried out for reigon, and the ones that make it laughed at me. Stupid mistake. I am a very competetive person, however this is more than a competition for me. This is a passion. This is a life road that I choose to follow with all my heart. I started playing because a friend, I learned to love it because of the music.
Well that's all. Pretty cheesy hu?
Well that's all. Pretty cheesy hu?
I can't think straight anymore, this guy I like Michael. I've liked him since Freshman year, and he's liked me since then too. (No offence James, I know I met you Freshman year too.) But, I finally got to see him one week ago and we've been texting eachother goodmorning and goodnight and small conversations here and there. Today I was scared because he never replied to my texts. After a while I just thought 'oh, he probably doesn't have time'. I let it go, but I got a text at 8 pm saying that he wouldn't be able to talk to me. When I asked him why he said 'Dad's coming home and he's probably going to hit me'. Those words shattered everything. I mean, sure he's a strong guy, he proved it by constantly beating me at EVERYTHING. Yet I am scared for him.
No parent should beat their child, when I told him to go to a freinds house he said no. That his dad would beat his 12 year old sister or send her to go get him.
I hate it because I know I can't do anything, and I really love him. (I am not throwing the word around. >=[ ) I don't know what to do, he says his mom is happy, and that he just has to put up with it for one more year, but that's still too long in my eyes.
He's one of the sweetest guys I know and he doesn't deserve that.
Someone help, because I can't stop crying.
I noticed something was up before, but I never expected something this serious.
I'm scared...
No parent should beat their child, when I told him to go to a freinds house he said no. That his dad would beat his 12 year old sister or send her to go get him.
I hate it because I know I can't do anything, and I really love him. (I am not throwing the word around. >=[ ) I don't know what to do, he says his mom is happy, and that he just has to put up with it for one more year, but that's still too long in my eyes.
He's one of the sweetest guys I know and he doesn't deserve that.
Someone help, because I can't stop crying.
I noticed something was up before, but I never expected something this serious.
I'm scared...
Meet me where the wind meets the water,
where the birds are flying free.
Meet me where the fire reaches the earth,
where the land is new.
I want to stay by your side forever,
I want to let you know my love is true.
So meet by the dock at midnight,
And you'll see what I've felt for you.
Meet me where the waves meet the sand,
And i'll meet you on land.
There are days when you feel nothing else I know,
So come to me quietly and you'll see.
That I'm not your average ordinary,
I'm not your typical girl.
I live for freedom I know,
I come and go here behind you.
Meet me where the wind meets the water,
Where the birds are flying free.
Meet me where the fire reaches the earth,
Where the land is new____.
(Bored and wrote a song)
where the birds are flying free.
Meet me where the fire reaches the earth,
where the land is new.
I want to stay by your side forever,
I want to let you know my love is true.
So meet by the dock at midnight,
And you'll see what I've felt for you.
Meet me where the waves meet the sand,
And i'll meet you on land.
There are days when you feel nothing else I know,
So come to me quietly and you'll see.
That I'm not your average ordinary,
I'm not your typical girl.
I live for freedom I know,
I come and go here behind you.
Meet me where the wind meets the water,
Where the birds are flying free.
Meet me where the fire reaches the earth,
Where the land is new____.
(Bored and wrote a song)
Okay, here's the deal
Choji = Black Chris who asked me out 2 times
Cole = X-removed
Random chick AKA chick = Amber (I believe that was her name...)
Fatty = Jeff
Kitty = Meghan
Moni = monique
OKay so this bull shit has been going on for a while now,
ever since me and Robin broke up to be exact, but anywho,
Cole "said" he was Choji's "Best friend"
(I can guess what you're thinking...Great She wants to talk about a shitty life problem I don't care for.)
Well Cold actually just used Choji and so me and Moni told him not to talk to Cole anymore, of course you can guess how that worked out, Choji went behind our backs and went crawling back to Cole who had said he wanted nothing to do with Choji. He just kept using him.
Well yesterday I caught Choji following Coles order to get him food, and I looked at cole, and said "Fag."
I don't go and talk behind peoples backs, if I have a problem with you i'll say it to your face.
Well anyway, today I found out that Cole texted Choji saying that Choji was the reason Cole was "Emo"
(He can't be responsible for his own fucking actions, fucking ass)
And that he would have people jump Choji,
Well I went up to him "You're and ass hole and a fag, and you know what I hope you burn in hell you mother fucker" he ignored me of course, but then Kitty came and had a chain and I said I would hit Cole with it, well then Cole, this Chick and Choji well the Chick is instantly on me saying that i need to stop being a bitch to Cole, so, drama here drama there, basically i was the bad guy in the situation. Then she told me I needed to back off and not do anything.
What she DOESN'T know is that if I step down all the people I told NOT to jump Cole, will, and that's about...
hm...
I'd say around 12 sinors, 7 juniors, around 54 sophmores (not including me) and around 70-ish freshman (his own grade)
Now, here's the thing, i'm basically the person they go to when they want permission, why I do not know, but aside from that,
I know that if I step down he'll get his ass kicked, but the problem is, I am his biggest threat, LITERALLY I am the biggest threat that's why he brought the chick to fight his battle for him. I am irritated
-Amie Mourna
Choji = Black Chris who asked me out 2 times
Cole = X-removed
Random chick AKA chick = Amber (I believe that was her name...)
Fatty = Jeff
Kitty = Meghan
Moni = monique
OKay so this bull shit has been going on for a while now,
ever since me and Robin broke up to be exact, but anywho,
Cole "said" he was Choji's "Best friend"
(I can guess what you're thinking...Great She wants to talk about a shitty life problem I don't care for.)
Well Cold actually just used Choji and so me and Moni told him not to talk to Cole anymore, of course you can guess how that worked out, Choji went behind our backs and went crawling back to Cole who had said he wanted nothing to do with Choji. He just kept using him.
Well yesterday I caught Choji following Coles order to get him food, and I looked at cole, and said "Fag."
I don't go and talk behind peoples backs, if I have a problem with you i'll say it to your face.
Well anyway, today I found out that Cole texted Choji saying that Choji was the reason Cole was "Emo"
(He can't be responsible for his own fucking actions, fucking ass)
And that he would have people jump Choji,
Well I went up to him "You're and ass hole and a fag, and you know what I hope you burn in hell you mother fucker" he ignored me of course, but then Kitty came and had a chain and I said I would hit Cole with it, well then Cole, this Chick and Choji well the Chick is instantly on me saying that i need to stop being a bitch to Cole, so, drama here drama there, basically i was the bad guy in the situation. Then she told me I needed to back off and not do anything.
What she DOESN'T know is that if I step down all the people I told NOT to jump Cole, will, and that's about...
hm...
I'd say around 12 sinors, 7 juniors, around 54 sophmores (not including me) and around 70-ish freshman (his own grade)
Now, here's the thing, i'm basically the person they go to when they want permission, why I do not know, but aside from that,
I know that if I step down he'll get his ass kicked, but the problem is, I am his biggest threat, LITERALLY I am the biggest threat that's why he brought the chick to fight his battle for him. I am irritated
-Amie Mourna
I think I can go ahead and rant
My sister drives my nerves on end
I can't keep on putting up with it
I hit her 2 times,
now I may have to take anger management or see a psychologist.
Joy to the fucking world!
More on this later when all my thoughts are collected.